The Truth of Why I Haven’t Written
I haven’t posted anything on here since July 12, and in the last week, I’ve had several people ask me why I wasn’t posting. Well, the truth is that I have nothing good to write about.
If you read my last post, then you know I am spiraling quickly into a horrible decent of realization that my time in Ireland is coming to an end. I am not happy about this. Because I’m not happy about it, all of the posts I begin creating are all negative and whiney. Seeing as how I don’t want to absolutely bore my readers, I chose to take a break from writing to get my head around things.
With that being said, I still don’t have my head around things.
There is some stuff going on in my personal life that have my head spinning in a constant hurricane. I know when I go home that I will have to find a job. There may be a few possibilities for me which is great! But I’m now at a point where I have to clean up my résumé, add to my LinkedIn, and reawaken points of contact back home. My friends and I are already spending an extra-large amount of time together. Matilda (my Swedish roommate) and I cry when we talk about me going home, so we have just flat talked about it because, as we like to say, “It’s not real if you don’t talk about it.”
See, even this post is negative. I have like 10 posts in my “Drafts” stash that I can’t bring myself to finish. Every time my brain tries to write a positive post, my heart gets in the way and breaks. Stupid heart. I’m going to try to get a few posts out per week from here on out.
In all seriousness though, I haven’t done a lot recently. My contract at Northern Trust ran up a few weeks ago, so I’m back to everyday temping. There are no travel plans ahead of me. I don’t really want to leave Ireland when all I have left is two months here, so I hope to see as much of this country as possible.
Like I said, I’m going to try to get out a few posts a week from here on out. Just bear with me if some of them are super emotional and frustrated. I’ve never been one to pretend like everything is hunky-dory while living abroad. Sometimes it sucks, and right now is one of those times